if im quite, pissed off, not acting myself its cuz these are hard times, please don't take it personally cuz i love u all!!!

basically i just feel second best in evrything, friends, family, hutty is in all mi classes ok!

i kno everyone is feeling pressure about exams and life etc.. i guess its just really getting to me and i don't kno why or what to do.

plus one action of someones did actually hurt mi feelings, am i not good enough? or is it because im also friends wiv other people! cuz i would've chosen u most likely.

oh well i'll get over it

life is cold :( (literally)

im;
tired yet energetic
miserable yet jolly
fed up yet optimistic
ill yet well
happy yet sad
anxious yet collected
angry yet calm


what am i


a PARVEEN!!

everything is good...

...

had an imense time at new moon!
my best frined is now my best friend again!
paul actaully said something nice to me at the gurdwara!
my nan has made me my favourite indian desert!
nearly finished an impossible english essay!
plans to see 2012 are in check!
my aunt aunt and uncle are going away next weekend so we have their house to ourselves!
my knee is almost 100%

life is generally really good atm.. so i hope nxt week at school also is!

xxxx

i don't know how to explain how i feel at the moment but a good word would be overwhelmed.
the amount of school crap, family crap and wootton upper crap at this current moment in time is just so overwhelming i don't know how to feel about it, i don't know how to act,

oh... and if i seem mildley pissed off with you ITS CUZ UR A CRAP FRIEND!

I'VE CHANGED MY MIND, not overwhelmed, PISSED OFF!

Lately i haven't been writing much, well people say that i blog loads, but how many of mi blogs actually say much? not many, and the ones that do are mostly written out of bursts of sudden emotion so i probably don't mean much of it, so rly don't judge me by ani of my 'emotional' blogs because i probably don't mean any of it!

WHY OH WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME GOD!!!

ONE KNEE AFTER THE OTHER, STARTING TO GET STUPID!!!

plus getting a cold, not lookin foward to times ahead, i just hope im better for nxt weekend!

xxxx