it's not all good.

oh man. why do i feel like crap rite now. i swear i was fine yesterday and now i feel like shiit and like i mean nothing in this fuckin' world.

i know, i probably actually hav quite a good life but all mi friends are all proper rich. this shouldn't bother me but it puts you down slightly. i don't have any money to buy new clothes every week or go on fancy holiday's, heck i've got about £5.35 altogether atm.

yer so depressin.

but that isn't really why i feel like crap, that just adds to it.

i've been thinking since that drug talk and i actually can't go anywhere near anything, drugs or much alcohol EVER again because i reckon with mi personality i will become addicted, and absolutely destroy any decent life im desperately trying to set out for myself rite now.

i've seen what drugs do to people and i don't want it to happen to me because i would then just be fuckin' up mi already pathetic excuse of a life.


and to top everything off i adam keeps on being deep and depressing and i miss maha like LOTS and LOTS!

xxx