today i watched my sister's keeper, a film of one of the most amazing, funny, sad books i've ever read. naturally the film was no where near the standard of the book,

but...

it was good,

it's about a family, the eldest daughter kate has luekemia, and she is ready to die, but her ,mother isn't ready for that to happen. kate asks her sister, anna to sue their parents for emcipation of her body. and she does.

but thats not the point with family is it? anna won the case, but she didn't win, she couldn't win either way, she loses, means she gives her sister a kidney and can't become a soccer player, ice hockey player cheerleader or watever she wants to be, she wins, her sister dies.

i can't relate to the story so i was really confused as to why it got to me so much, i mean i cry at most movies or sad books, but i didn't just cry, i felt sad, depressed, like the characters were feeling, i didn't know why.

there are two possible explanations:
i am emotionally exploding,

or that in a way i did relate, i fight with my family so much, especially my mother, but i would be lost without them,
i am really lucky, me, my brother and my sister are perfectly healthy, but one of us could easily not have been,

i guess the story just made me feel so grateful of my life and my family and my friends. and i want everyone to be, you may not be close or whatever with your parents but seriously appreiciate everything they do for you.

when was the last time you told someone you love them? love doesn't have to be in a relationship way, cuz if it was then most people would be pretty miserable for most of their life.

i love lots of people, probably too many becasue each one of my family members, or friends brings something different to my life, each aspect would make my life truly suckish with out them,

people say that they have lots or little friends, but how many of them can you tell everything to? how many of them are you not afraid to open up to? for me i can think of three, not to say that i don't like any of my other friends, cuz i do, if your my friends then i love you, if you don't know that then im telling you now.
but those three people have made an impact on my life they probably don't realise how big it is tho.

so basically i just wanted to get the point across that be grateful, and enjoy what you do have, cuz you could easily have not had it.

xxxx